Ok so challenge was the word this morning peeps. I struggled with the scales and it almost sent me spiralling out of control!!!!
When i woke up this morning i didnt perform on the toliet as i normally do and when i jumped on the scales i was 100mg exactly not what i wanted to see i had seen 99kg all week and felt shattered i wanted to give up, i thought who am i kidding i can't do this my body doesnt want to go under 100kg. I am wasting my time. Suddenly the body pump i had planned was underf threat my crazy negative talk was saying oh your fatigued feel that muscle pain take the day off. I almost did but something made me just go into auto pilot i didnt want to go but i just did. When i looked in the big mirrors though pump all i could focus on was how FAT i was and the huge overhang i had when i was doing tricep kick backs. Fark negative self talk was doing a job on me today. I got home (taking an annual leave day today as is the rest of my office) watched a crappy Reece Witherspoon movie my mum had rented over night, made a black cofee which kicked in post the movie and jumped on the scales which flashed back 99.4kg. So i am getting back to happy now i'll take my 700gm loss and work on that i can do to improve it next week. (Note - My rule is that i can take my lowest weight on weigh in day, i'm not doing any sneaking biggest loser tricks so i'm not really cheating just giving myself the best possible weigh in).
I'm thinking of giving up pole for a while. Basically i am not progressing and i have a sneaking suspicion that the extra 25kg i have on my body is NOT helping! I have used 3 of 8 of my classes and dont know whether i should just cut my losses or see the last 5 classes through? Argh dilemma
Of course i will not be giving up exercising i will replace pole with gym or outdoor running i just dont think that it is helping with my goal at the moment and my inability to progress is frustrating me.
OK so here is my summary so far today
Breakfast - 45g Barley Max cereal, 200g jalna bio dynamic yoghurt, 1 banana, 1 necatarine, 1 kiwi fruit, 1/2 cup skim milk.
Exercise - Body pump
morning tea - 4 pieces licorice, 4 brazil nuts, 1 serve (row) seaweed rice crackers
lunch - 100g tempeh and salad (going to make now)
dinner - 100g chicken breast and salad
snack - musashi slm protein shake
Pole ???? i will probably go
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