Yes i have a touch of the Shannon Noll's today(isn't it sad Shannon Noll gets all the credit for that song) I was going to look up who sings the original but i feel ugly like Shannon Noll so i think it is appropriate.
I feel like all my efforts get me no where. I put in more effort than others and dont get the results or outcomes that they get. Not just in weight loss but in life.
I know that whinging wont get me anywhere and i should be happy for others but i am struggling at the moment.
Every area of my life feels like an uphill battle at the moment. Everything is rushed and unsatisfying.
EXAMPLES
Pole dancing - Everyone in my class is better than me the grandmother in the class, the skinny girl, the annoying girl, the shy skinny teenage girl EVERYONE. I can feel my negative energy taking me over in class.
Food - I am eating 80% perfectly but i keep falling down with snacking. At work at home where ever put it in front of me and i will eat it.
Exercise - I am training well i just wish some miracle would happen and i would be faster, stronger, sexier instantly. Also i wish i could be up in the morning to train but i just hit that snooze button and suddenly i am boardering on running late for work. Not just having totally missed training. Then i am left with the mindfield of leaving work on time to get into a class/ getting a piece of equipment at the gym.
Love life and Social Life - No existant not even a flicker or glimmer of hope. Even my mum has a boyfriend 'argh'
Work - work is work same old crap it's not that bad just wish everyone did there job and others were more organised and didn't try and make me solve there problems.
Money - goes out as soon as it comes it. I wish i earned more and stopped buying crap that i dont really need.
I really feel like everything is stagnate in my life and i dont have the UMPH to change it. I know i am the only one who can change it. I just wish i had my magic back. I guess that is the hard part when you have had that awesomeness that motivates you to 'just do it' and then you lose it you know you will only be able to really achieve your goals when you have it back. and i know the only way i can get it back it behave my way to sucess. Keep going keep making tweaks to my awesomeness.
OK how depressing was that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will try and be more enthusiatic mext post
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment