CHEAT

So this morning i weighed in 4kg less than i did this time last week and all i can think of is that i have cheated my way to being here. On the one hand i am proud that i stuck to the urban remedy detox to the letter of the law and have since been following a body science meal plan stictly but on the other had i think i wouldn't have such a big number had a not been on the juice detox.
My personal trainer wasn't happy that i had opted for the juice detox wasn't happy at all she suggested that it is just water weight and was dangerous and not healthy which i totally accept and to a degree accept.
The whole reason i wanted to do the detox was to draw a line in the sand with my add a kilo lose a kilo approach to weight loss and to break some cravings for sugar, salt and fat.
I just want to stick with it keep up my momentum and get it done. I also quite like having my meals mapped out for me via a meal plan menu provided they aren't to difficult (which they aren't with body science)i find it gives me something to focus on food and calorie wise and i am more interested in sticking to the plan rather than thinking too many other thoughts about food.
I have giving up coffee now and am full time on herbal teas and water and now i will only drink coffee when out and about.

Urban remedy detox day 2

Good news is i lost 1.3kg overnight but i guess that is expected when you only consumer juice for 1 day.
I don't feel hungry but i feel tired and a little dizzy at times. That didn't stop me from doing RPM last night i'm still undecided if that was a good idea or not. I got through the class but i kept wondering if i was going to faint so i'm not sure how much my focus was on pushing myself in the class but i feel like i put out in my usual effort in the class and i could feel my heart beating out of my chest at times.
Today is melbourne cup day and i will have to avoid eating in the inter office feast which i am happy to do i will just have to explain the juice detox to all the non believers :(
Ok 3 minutes till my first juice of the day

Urban Remedy Detox

http://urbanremedy.com.au/

So i am doing a 3 day level 1 cleanse starting today.

Yes the thought of no food for 3 days does FREAK me out but i am also looking forward to it. I put alot of emphasis on food. Purchasing it, Preparing it, EATING it, cleaning up after it and all the emotional baggage that goes with it. So the chance to take a break from food is challenging and i am optimisitic about it.

Of course i will be happy if i can lose some weight but i understand that may not happen. I am alreading seeing benefits. after 3 hours. Mainly the clease suggests that you drink a glass of water and or herbal tea between each juice (taken every 2 hours ) and i am enjoying the challenge if i can add this into my everyday life of focusing on drinking water it will help me.
I am also looking to break my cravings for sugar which are pretty bad. After i finish the clease i am going to follow the meal plan from the body for women website http://www.bodyforwomen.com.au/page/body/healthfreebies . I was lucky enough to win $1000 worth of their products on facebook so i have all the key ingredients for the smoothies, protein balls and muffins. I have cooked a batch of muffins and they are in my freezer waiting for me on thursday.
I want my body to reflect the effort i put in i am awesome at health and fitness 90% of the time and it's the 10% of the time when i binge that i let myself down and ruin all the effort i out in. This morning walking around woolies i noticed other consumers shopping. Ceasar salads, 4 packs or red bulls, chips lollies chocolates and all these people looked slimmer than me. I want to get the rewards for the effort that i put in.

I'm back

I love reading everyone elses blogs but never write on my own, LOSER! So i will try and start blogging.
Hmmmmm what is happening with me?
I seem to be maintaining 90kg for what seems like a year now and i'm getting sick of it. I'm ready to crash down into the 80's and i am building the mind set to do that.

I am newly addicted to Soy Milk in my coffee and have bought some oat milk to try. I don't like the taste of dairy and am loving the taste of soy at the moment so i am going with it.

My training is good and i really need to find some more time in the schedule to do more training particularly weights. I really want to sculpt my body and have muscles!
Ok that's enough for today

DAY 71 of 84 of my 12 week challenge

STATS
This weeks weight 90.3kg
This weeks loss 1.3kg
Total loss in 10 weeks 11.9kg

don't really have time to update now work is crap everyone in a bad mood :( will try and update later

DAY 64 of 84 of my 12 week challenge

Current weight 91.6kg
Loss this week 1kg

nothing majorly exciting to report this week. I'm battling a bit to keep it all together in my head. I still stumble with my thinking alot and i know i have a fair bit of work to do on my thinking regarding food. For example on friday night i was removing my acrylic nails i have had this done before professionally and they soak your nails in acetone for ages and then gently use another nail tip to lift the nails off so i figured i would save myself $20 and do it myself. Because it was taking longer than i wanted it to and i felt like i was going to fuck it up i stressed out i went to the cupboard and grabbed a hand full of licorice and and bag of changs gluten free fried noodles (that i had in the cupboard since november of last year) and scoffed them down. Why did i do this? I had had my dinner i wasnt really hungry i just wanted to relieve the stress because i was worried i would have to go to the gym the next day with half acrylic nails all jagged and crappy. Not the end of the world at all i could have gotten up early the next morning and finished soaking and removing them or i could have done exercise later in the day but no i wanted to have a MELT DOWN and turn to my old friend food. The worst part is i spent the best part of the weekend feeling guilty and doing extra exercise to try and reverse the effects. I worked too hard last week for my 1kg loss.

DAY 57 OF 84 OF MY 12 WEEK CHALLENGE

today's weight 92.6kg
loss this week = 1kg

I'm pretty happy with this result considering that in the past week i had a 3 course meal at Ucello restuarant and my fair share of 2 bottles of wine, my regular thai lunch and afogato and an indian banquet. I also trained my arse of and on saturday did 105 minutes of spin class and did the ban run in 47 minutes which was a record for me. I haven't had time to back track with the times but i will do a special post on running.

Feeling awesome and really this is what i want to be able to live my life without being on a diet as such just balancing things up