mental

So i am getting back on track
this week i did 4 exercise sessions
monday pole dancing
tuesday RPM
thursday personal training
sunday RPM
but i couldn't help but notice how mental i am. When i happily sloth away avoiding the gym and consuming thousands of calories i don't really notice (or care) about my body and my fat i guess i just accept it. But the moment i put a small amount of effort into exercise i become uber critical and wonder why i haven't lost weight or why my tummy looks bigger than the day before. Luckily i realise this is mental i just find it interesting the way my brain works .
Good news is i feel more committed to exercising and i am now back training with my old personal trainer Kellie and my sister (she took over my spot when i quit) on thursdays and i have pole on mondays. They are 2 dates that i have to keep because people are counting on me to turn up and i also want to do independant exercise so i am not totally unconditioned for pole and PT